Its been a long time since I've blogged my thoughts… the reasoning behind that is for almost a year now I haven't allowed myself to feel my feelings. I have ignored them and continued to run on passion for others opposed to considering what I may be doing to: my "self"
It wasn't until 3 weeks ago when we lost my 8 year old nephew, Blake in a boating accident, that I realized the injustice I was serving not only to my "self" but to those who love me and who are most important to me. Today I have decided to feel again… I will therefore be blogging again from time to time.
So much has changed about me in the past 2 years that I do not even recognize my "self"… I can't help but question if this is something that is a result of time or hormones or both perhaps? I suddenly feel the need to recognize my "self" again and to move forward from this stagnant place I have been these past 2 years. With the marriage of my daughter quickly approaching and the deterioration of my family around me; along with some new friends God has blessed me with - I realize - today…. is all I have - I better make the best of it… I must dig deeper into my "self" in search of motivation and "self" worthiness;
today I begin digging deeper in search of my "self"
