Maybe never

Everything about me is suspended
Until further notice.....

Left Wondering

Left wondering
If there's something I said.
Making me question
How I ever let you in my head.
There's a bond between us
That can never be denied
So why would you make me
Feel like I should hide?
You looked in my eyes
And made a lifetime pack
How in this relationship
We'll always have each others back.
Your mind is full
Of more than I will know
Leaving me wondering
Do I hold on or let go? 
I will continue to write
How you make me feel.
Sharing that with you
Is no longer part of the deal.

Go Another

If you can
    Go an entire day
         Without talking to me,

Then go another.

The One

The one who notices
The storm in your eyes
The silence in your voice
The heaviness in your heart
Is the one you need to let in.

Silence

Silence is deafening
It screams answers
I didn't want to hear.

Silence - fuck it!

Starvation

I taste you
and I realized
I have been starving
I want to taste you again
Like a secret or a sin
I will eat you slowly
With kisses.
Kissing you drunk
While sober...
Tasting your mind
Is a flavor I can never
forget.
Feed me, I'm starving.

Secret Dream

I love you even in my dreams.
Our Secret thoughts
Our Secret fantasies
lie unfulfilled.
Will they ever be fulfilled?
With one look.....
Eyes that undress.
Hands that caress.
Hearts that beat to the same rhythm.
Unspoken words
of unspoken desire.
Please come to my door.
Please come with a kiss.
I never knew
that I would feel like this.
It's only a dream.
We won't make it real, for now - maybe never.
We are in a world of our own.
Please come share a night with me.
A secret dream between us both.
When we wake
it will be like before.
Two life long friends
whose needs and desires have entwined between.
I even love you in my dreams...

Secretly Obsessed

Obsessed with the thought of you
wondering if it's only me or
if you sometimes remember the sweet things you've said
and if you meant them how I took them
or if I'm just obsessed with what's in your head

Obsessed with your very sentences
Every response I take personal
I know it's selfishness
Have you not noticed my eyes?
They hold secrets that only you can unlock
if you'd just take time to fill the thick juices of my pride
It's just boiling with lust, passion, trust and distrust
and other things I obsess over so much

I find myself writing to free myself from this prison I've created
where only you and I reside
I become confused about what I'm really feeling inside and I
try to rid the thoughts that are highly debated as false and I
begin to cry and
think of casting love spells so that the universe can deliver this affair
I know it's unfair
but I don't care

I'm obsessed with what hasn't happened between us
I'm obsessed with your heart and that the fact that
I don't think you've even noticed my selfish innuendos
and secret undertones that blatantly express my lust
Or maybe you have and you calmly remain in resistance of distrust
If you could only read my mind by simply touching my fingertips,
I'm sure I'd catch you out the corner of my eye biting your bottom lip
I'm obsessed with the passion and thoughts I think you have
Obsessing over an experience that I may never have....

I don't want to live anymore

I don't want to live anymore
What should I do...
I can't get over the pain
Of losing you!

I don't want to live anymore
What should I do??????

I
Can't
Get
Over
The
Pain
Of
Losing
YOU

Suspended

Dangling in life
As though I'm suspended in space
Lost and alone
No way to get out of this place

I don't remember depression
Feeling so sad....
This has to be
The worse case I have
Ever had

Suspended - it feels like the end
Suspended - the final win
Suspended - the hurt is so real
Suspended - I just can't deal...